很不爽！

不懂做什么...
突然之间整个人很不爽！
很想发泄！可是不懂用什么方式..
我的天啊，到底怎么了？脑残吗？
很想咬人！有谁可以给我咬？
之前有个人每天给我咬，现在他不在了..
我应该咬谁呢？我觉得我自己好像有问题！
最近都过很普通，下个星期开工了...
呵呵，为了过年，commission一定fight很高！
呵呵呵呵呵，我觉得不难啦，美容院嘛..
有客人给我做，我一定fight到很多！呵呵呵..
更何况那边有一个staff还不能完全下手..
so,我应该可以fight很多.. 预祝我成功吧..
现在我头脑想不到东西，又开始脑残了..
不写了,整个人很不爽！
迟点有时间的话，会post女人怎样保养 =)

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如果你是很敏感的人！我想跟你说拜拜！因为你不适合出现在我的部落格！

如果你认为我在说你，想对你说！你没有东西让我讲！

请不要对号入座！SON OF BITCH !

还有，你的人太敏感了....

不要心虚！如果觉得不是！

生青苔！

hummppp... 我的部落格生青苔了..
好久都没有上来了..
因为实在太懒惰了.. 最近都变了懒惰虫..
每天都吃喝玩乐.. 真是败家女.. =x
呵呵，可以说，最近的生活很糟糕...
自己都不认识我自己了.. 都是为了那个死变态..
把我搞到人不像人，鬼不像鬼...
现在都没在搞什么的，拿了美容科，短短1个月里..
差不多学完 =x 没有办法，被逼的.. 不然的话吃大便了..
发觉最近身边的人都变了很多，也包括我在内..
世界变了，当然人每天都在变.. 人是善变的嘛！
最近身边了出现了一个人，不知道是好事还是坏事...
他教了我很多从来我都不懂的东西，身边有这样的一个人，每天都提醒你..
我觉得很好啊, 至少不会踩进洞里.. 跌也不会那么的伤..
怎样都好，他吃盐多过我吃米，经历过的东西当然比我多..
可是我应该把这个关系断掉比较好.. 一言难尽!
转眼间，2011年来临了.. 我觉得我18岁过得很无聊..
很废材，一点意义都没有.. 根本就在浪费时间..
我觉得现在的年轻人，都无所事事，懒惰到要命!
包括我自己也是.. 社会也出了，每天只在做无聊的事..
没有4 5 点都不起床，我都不懂像什么..
所以最近都在改变自己，10点起床.. 整个人都比较不一样..
呵呵，都是有某人每天都不放弃的打几百通电话叫我起床..
谢谢啦..
刚才看见了某某人的部落格, 她有个幸福的家庭，另一半她也有了..
她渴慕了这些都很久.. 可是她却一点都不知足..
我真的不明白，当她得不到的时候，怨天怨地！
现在得到了，又嫌东嫌西的.. 真搞不明白她为什么会这样..
每天都 emo, 每天都想哭.. 如果觉得自己真得那么的可怜压力大..
那么这个世界上不是有很多人都看不开吗？你要的，都有了..
你还要什么呢? 检讨一下，自己多么的比他人幸福...
每个人都有压力，生活，感情，金钱..通通都是！
那么他们应该要结束自己生命了吗？
如果没有压力，那么社会会那么的发达吗？
如果全世界的人不需工作都有金钱，那么你还有米饭吃吗？
那来的农夫阿？难道你认为农夫他们想做一世的农夫吗？
难道他们不想过无忧无虑的生活吗？每个人都想啊...
我也很想啊.. 那为什么你现在有车，有家，有饭吃，有钱用，不用出去赚钱，只是乖乖的读书..
就在那么怨天怨地？或许你太受保护了吧？
我觉得你应该看看你身上得到了有些人得不到的东西..
那我也很明白，每个人都不会满足的..
可以我可以说的是，有了就珍惜.. 时间不等你..
你这样几时会成功？20岁开始，就是黄金时期搏杀的时候..
难道真的到了30出头才来博？太迟了.. 为自己想一想，也为未来的家庭想一想..
在我面前有很多的版，30都快来了，一无所有...
他说，他很后悔为什么以前不好好的珍惜时间去博杀.. 现在一分钱都没有..
钱又没有，屋又没有，车有一辆，还要供的.. 没有另一半..
我看到他这样我都怕.. 虽说，女生啊, 怕什么啊？
以后等男人养阿，我要大声地说：屁！！！
现在的男人靠得住吗？男人养？自己都养不起呢！
女人啊，应该收几分钱.. 就算男人不要你了，至少你有钱吃饭..
现在的男人，一个签字离婚，拍拍屁股走人.. 过各自的生活..
现在多的事！女人啊，千万不要嫁错郎！
现在的社会离婚机率越来越高！所以说，爱惜自己！
身边都出现不少朋友都是丰子成婚，宝宝生出来了..
就为金钱吵架，然后闹离婚.. 到最后，无辜的是自己的家人还有宝宝..
自己就打开翅膀到处飞了.. 社会都变了..
在网上都看到不少丑闻，比如说，小孩子才小学，就学人家接吻还要拍下来..
我的天啊，这什么世界啊？还有一个，lesbian? 中学的.. 接吻还摸胸部！=.=
我看到都要晕了.. 然后中学女生打架？又我操你，你操我.. 还盖人家！
我的天呀呀呀呀呀呀！最近还有一件火辣新闻，为情自杀！那个我无言，也不想给意见..
事实的来龙去脉我也不知道.. 所以只好闭上自己的嘴巴..
唉 ... 社会变了，我也变了.. 是时候醒过来了..
好好的善用自己的时间.. 记得他说过，为什么人家可以做到，我自己却做不到？
不要说不，要对自己说yes! =)

好了，下次再上来.. bye bye..

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是时候向前看

ivan, 我不知道你是否可以看到这些吗..但是我希望你是可以看到的..随缘吧 =)
hmmp, 不管怎么样，我们一切的时刻都是我们的回忆..
我好开心可以跟你在一起.我不知道你跟我在一起是否开心..
我不知道！也不肯定！可是我100% 肯定我跟你在一起我很开心..
谢谢你给我的一切是我从来没得过国的..我说过，我要好好珍惜你..
可是到最后，我没有机会去珍惜你了..我们的缘分就那么简单的结束了..
你有想念我吗？我也不懂...感觉不到！
我需要去想这些问题吗？不！我不应该！因为我们的缘分已经到此结束了..
我受够了这样的一等再等 !!够了！！！..
谢谢你的家人伤害了我，我在这个教训中醒过来了..非常的谢谢！
是，对！我承认我哭到够力到无可想象..
因为你，我每天都想我们的问题，我把自己前面的道路封闭了..
我知道我不应该再这样的下去..我们的一切，已经是个回忆了..
就算我再怎样的哭，我只是在伤害自己... 没有人会在乎，尤其是你！
如果你真的爱我的话..你会在我兵营的期间来联络我不管你用什么方法都好..
或许你有什么理由，我不知道！我现在不想知道了...
我用太多的理由来掩护你，我在欺骗自己，你是有机会回来我身边的..
我只是一个大笨蛋！ 因为我要你回来我身边，我用了无数的借口来掩护你..
过了几个月后，我以为一切都平息了，我以为你真的是会联络我..到最后，我错了！
我得到的只是，伤心！伤害！难过！失望！
等你，对！我真的想过要等你两年！现在我觉得我自己太傻了！
不应该去帮你找借口去掩护你..
让自己觉得你不是这样的人...可是这是大错特错！！
反而我自己在伤害自己！！真的是够力大笨蛋！！够了！
我应该不要在这样的发白了梦下去了！只会让自己不好过...
感情这些事我已经够了！不想再去想！不想再去傻！
对，我是真的很爱很爱你。。以前到现在的感觉，还是没有变过。。
可是我会尽我自己的能力来忘记你的一切。。
谢谢你以前对我的好，谢谢你！！我之前真的很幸福。。
可是我却没有好好的珍惜你...我现在的压力大到无可想象！
我已经没有时间去想你的东西了...我好累，真的！够了好吗？？
heidi, 谢谢你在我的人生里给了我这一个的教训，我从中吸取了这些经验...
我并没有讨厌你，我是要谢谢你...因为你让我看见你的真面目！
如果没有你，我不会长大!! 可能现在我还是无知的少女被蒙蔽在谷里...
真的非常感谢你，我也要非常的感谢上帝，他拿了这些人磨练我..
让我看见现在现实社会中的人是多么的恐怖与丑陋！
我才18，还有很多东西要我学呢..才刚刚开始罢了...
希望我会在我人生里成功 = )IVAN, 我诚心的祝福你还有你的家人...
在他们眼中或许我是个不好的女生..可是没关系，我知道他们也是为了你着想，所以才会这样..
我现在不是在做什么好人来祝福你..只是很想你好好得过..
当初我真的很讨厌他们，恨不得掐死他们！现在不会了。。因为我已经把事情看得很清楚...
不是说你的错或者是我的错！是我们两个都有错，我们不应该在一起！
或许你是我生活中的过路者..
我相信，如果我们有缘，我们注定在一起的话...
我们会再重逢...是我的就是我的，走不掉的！=）有缘相见！

GOD BLESS YOU AND UR FAMILY. GRRRR. PEACE.
BYE MY LOVE Ivan.

☄ Relax Time ☃

hoho , is my relax time !!
because mother and father go to travel ..
i'm so relax because no people nag me anymore ..
but seriously mother didn't nag me in these days feel not used .
hmmpp, saturday night decide go to church with dear .
at last, didn't go .. due to something happened .
then i decide to go bangsar find dear to take dinner .
after prepared , out at 7pm+ .. i'm late =X
reached there almost 8something like that .
wait dear 5minute outside his house, make me pissed off..
because i don't like to waited people.
after he get on my car, we got some arguement.
after 5sec nothing already . it's difficult to control their own do not speak .
we decided to go midvalley have our dinner ..
reached there about 9something, find parking make me pissed off again..
don't even know why this recently i don't know how to control my temper!
finally, i found a parking . went to shopping mall and see what to do.
ivan say want to watchmovie, then we go to the cinema and see got what nice movie and see the time .
then we go queue , we choose IP MAN 2 . suddenly i feel no mood want to watch.
then we go out from the queue, it make us feel weird . hahaha.
because we queue there almost 10minute. suddenly come out .
i saw some interested shop over there, is a guitar shop ..
we go inside and see and also ask the guitar price for my friend.
and i saw a set of drum very nice !! OSHHH...
make me get excited want to buy ! 2k ...
but if i buy don't know where can i put .. hahaha ..
and if i play at home, sure will be very noisy 1 .. akakaka ~
after that we go hang around the shopping mall ..
still thinked what to eat , finally we choose to go eat sushi .
duhhh ... after eated we back to bangsar and find where the mitz club location..
finally found it .. decide go there to celebrate my farewell party .
anyone want to join us ? =D tell me if you want to .
after found the mitz club then we go ivan house outside there chit chat inside the car .
chit chat until 11pm+ then ivan go back home .
reached home 11.30pm decide to find henry, reached his house feel not well.
then back home early, i tot want to play until morning.
but my body does not obey . so, back home early .
reached home play comp a while and chat with ivan .
sleep in 1am+ .. too tired ..
on this day, i was so relax to over the time . =D
i hope i can lead my life like this everyday.

♥ you Mr. Ivan .

WithLove,
Juanbabe.♥

Appreciate ❤

I'm so lucky that i get a boyfriend like you ..
I'm not sure that izzit you really love me 100%?
But, that's not important for me ..
because, i dont need this ..
What i need What i want, i think you clearly than me ..
You're very stupid to treat yourself like this because of me ..
why ? im not that good what ..
because due to my temper than you don't want to tell out your feeling ..
everytime everywhere we go, sure will get arguement...
because of what ? my temper .. !!
sometime i really hate my temper .. im so sorry my love..
i dunno how to control my temper .. i hate myself sometime..
im so damn bitch ..
Sometimes, i want to break up with you ..
because why ? haaa ..
the reason is so funny .. i look down myself ..
im not suit you .. why ? im so weak !
i cant stand what they say ! how come ?
don't think me that im so strong , i am not strong woman ..
actually im very weak .. all of them tot im so strong, but so sorry...
im not, im just pretend in front all of you .. because i need to protect myself .
no 1 can protect me , after i knew you ..
im very lucky that i have you ..
sometime i cry for nothing .. you very worry about me ..
moreover you go bang the wall you go hurt ur body ..
oh no ! im really heart pain when i see that ..
i can see that how much you love me, sometime i look at ur eye ..
my heart really pain, i dunno how to express out my feeling to you..
just got a feeling im so heart pain, i feel that im so sorry to you ..
haaaa... you younger than me .. this is the 1st time i got a bfren smaller than me ..
you're the first one ..
sometime, i say i need to go edi.. take care urself .. (i mean ns)
you'll tears about this , and hug me tight ask me don't go..
dear, i have to go.. i hope don't go too because of you ..
this recently, you make out something really make me heart pain ..
maybe, you're not mature yet .. but i know time can change everything..
i'll wait for you .. because no 1 is perfect ..
still got the 1month, i've to go edi, PLEASE.. take care urself ..
because im not beside you ..
I am sincerely telling you that IM SO SORRY MR.IVAN ..
i hurt you alot due to my temper ...
you're the 1 who really love dearly me ..
everything i need, everything i want to do ..
at 1st you'll say no, but after i give you a bad face then you ALLOW edi .
but i know ur heart the answer is NO !
you want i happy, how many reluctant you dun want to you will say yes also..
ur dear going to ns soon, you want i happy b4 i go ns ..
you want me without any pressure to go in ..
you borrow me ur laptop even you canot play..
you come to find me every morning wake up on 6am and take bus , putra line and also the lrt to come find me..
how sweet am i ? how happiness am i ?
when im not happy, you're the one let me bite!! let me beat!! let me scold!!
you NEVER NEVER complain before ..
when i no mood, you'll make some stupid stuff and make me laugh..
when i so down, you're the one who beside me and support me ..
when i not allowed what you want to do, there are few hundred in your heart you want to do ..but you will just listen to me..
because you dont want i get hurt, get sad, get moody and most important is argue!
when i argue with you, you'll never want to argue with me.. i dunno why..
and i also dont understand why.. but now, i understand ..
IVAN, im so sorry ... i really hurt you deep.
i dont even understand ur feeling .. im so dump!!!
im so bitch !! i hate myself why i want to treat you like this ..
everytime i told myself, do not treat you like this anymore .. but when something happened, i just cant control my temper.. i hate my temper badly !!!
dont treat me so good, you know why ??
because when you treat me so good, i will just insatiable ...
i'm just like a queen in ur heart !!
i know i know, you want i happy now because of the problem ..
but seriously no need lah..
give me time .. i will heal myself ..
and also i want to tell you here.. how much you want to take care urself when i go in to the NS...

THE THING YOU NEED TO DO WHEN I GO NATIONAL SERVICE****

1. becareful when you go to work .
2. do not take the headphone to listen music when you're crossing the road.
3. remember to bring water when you go to work.
4. you no drink water, you will get sick !!
5. after work, pls back home early .
6. before you sleep, pls cover blanket, later you catch cold.
7. dont play comp and psp until so late, (blackshot ar, monster hunter ar, warcraft ar)
8. be patient when you settle everything .
9. hardworking to work.
10. dont play until forget to study.
11. help me take care my family .
12. dont wear slipper always because you very careless .
13. dont because of you want to save money dont want to eat .
14. remember help me to pay insurance fee, i come back i will give back to you ya!
15. after i come back, i dont want to see you get skinny .
16. everything you're not happy, just write down to the book , wait i come back
and see .
17. dont make me to worry you when im inside there.
18. dont chase lenglui, see can lah .. hahaha..
19. remember that i'll miss you everyday.
20. sleep early always .

THIS IS ALL YOU NEED TO DO FOR ME IF YOU LOVE ME. ❤

at last, i want to tell you that ..

I DO ❤ YOU VERY MUCH IVAN KOK MUN CHUN .

WithLove,
JuanBabe.

21 MAY 2010

看透了一切....

所谓知人口面不知心，这句话... 让我深深地体会到...
不要小看这几句话... 这些话让我看见了许多的一切..
这几天，发生了很多很多的事情..
一切的一切都不管我的事，可是我被扯了下去...
这件事情弄得我失眠几天了，身边的却毫不在乎...
根本就没有觉得到底错的是在那里，我看在他心里面真的一点惭愧都没有..
怎么了？是到底怎么了？我完全都没办法的在继续的下去..
我接受的我忍受的一切都有限度的..
你把疤痕留在我的心里，不是说好像写错字了用胶擦来擦掉那么来得容易..
伤口，不是说服了药就可以完全的痊愈...
这一切，都不能禰補... 时间可以冲淡一切？
对不起，我不相信这些话... 因为当不开心的时候一切一切都会在脑海里跳出来..
所以，不要随便可以把一些伤害放在我的身上...
不然将来会影响感情... 在我心里，他是最可靠的...
可是事实的全部都不是!! 女人啊，照顾好自己..
不要被骗，就算你多么的爱他，他都会说谎！！
因为这些都不由你来控制..唯有自己保护自己...
不想被受伤害，自己清醒的做每一件事情．．
现代外面的世界的引诱都让他们无法抵挡．．

失去了一些东西，但是得到的开心比失去的多十倍~

will be update tomoro.. =)

愛我的人就在我面前 ♥

我現在發現, 真正愛我的男人就在我面前..
我卻不去珍惜他, 還要很多的要求..
自己卻很犯賤找回就舊歡, 他, 看見我跟他信息..
沒有一句怨言, 沒有懷疑, 沒有責問我..
他, 非常的相信我.. 為了我, 甚麼都可以..
我所要求的, 他從來沒有 say No !
我要的, 他通通都給我..
就算他沒有能力給到我所要的, 他都會想盡辦法..
我真的要好好的珍惜這個男人..
他有很多地方我接受不到..
可是, 愛一個人一定要愛他的全部..
而且他是唯一一個對我那麼好的男人..
我要把一切所有的愛都給他.. =)
我不希望的到一個不開心的結果..

10 APRIL 2010

星期六那天晚上, 我太過想念他, 他也很想念我..
我決定去 bangsar 找他吃晚餐..
這是我們真正的第一次 "撐桌腳" ..
因為很多時候都有朋友在.. 兩個人在一起的感覺好好哦..
覺得特別的幸福.. 7pm我去準備, 7.4pm+就開始出門了..
去到那裡都8.15pm了, 還要等那個傻瓜準備好..
上了車後, 想一想去那裡吃好, 他提議去吃sushi或是甚麼的..
因為bangsar吃東西很貴, 都是有錢人吃的..
然後我們決定去bangsar 的一間shopping mall 吃sakae sushi ..
呵呵, 我們兩個總愛作弄對方, 這是我們的溝通方式..
我們不打不相識.. 哈哈哈哈~ 這種感覺不是每個情侶有的..
兩個傻人吃了rm75 =.= 好貴阿..
然後我們就去拍拖時間, 我們去mcd玩psp..
這是我們的拍拖方式.. 哈哈哈~
玩玩下兩個人為了game吵架, 3 8 的..
到最後還是沒事了, 因為他很遷就我, 而且是他罵我先..
因為我弄到他輸了.. 哈哈哈哈哈~
打完了過後, 我就送他回家, 12am他到家... 我回到都12.20am了..
跟他包完電話粥然後我就去睡覺了..

下面是在sakae sushi拍的, 慢慢欣賞..

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IVAN KOK.

WithLove,

JuanBabe.

感覺

剛才, 太悶了.. 我就去看了個女生的部落格...
看見了他跟一個男生分手了.. 又是第三者的問題?
她是誰? 不方便說...
這女的，本來跟男的感情很好...當他們在一起的時候有很多背後的故事我們都不知道..
當然, 她沒有完全的寫出來...
現在, 男的跟她分手了因為有了第三者..
她就把所有的一切對男的付出了多少, 在金錢方面為她付出了多少都說出來..
我在想, 我曾經都是這樣...
我知道那女的就因為男的被人家奪走了, 而一時之氣把所有對男的付出了多少都放在部落格上...
現在我看見她, 就好像看見以前的我...
我感覺到, 以前的我就好像她這樣做, 是以為不服氣, 而把那男的唱衰..
就要那男的身敗名裂, 在朋友的眼中這樣我得到了同情.. 在別的男生中, 我是個對男朋友很好的..
現在的我在想, 為甚麼以前那麼的傻?
付出的一切是我自己願意的, 誰叫我愛他 ?
罵第三者有甚麼用? 罵了也是失去了.. 罵了就只是給自己一種安慰..
讓自己覺得, 我為自己出了一口氣... 到後來, 自己還是在那邊傷心..
何必呢? 要走的, 讓他走吧.. 不屬於你的就是不屬於你的.. 就算把他奪回來有甚麼用?
自己的心里面還是有那些刺, 在這感情裡面充滿了懷疑...
只會傷心, 吵架.. 繼續的下去..
男的會為了別的女生而離開你或隱瞞你..
那就代表, 在他眼里你根本就不重要, 不被他重視.. 為甚麼還要傻傻的在他身邊讓他來虐待你?
根本自己就是放一個會把你殺掉的野獸在身邊..
怎麼不學會開始保護自己?
我跟x男友在一起3年了, 我付出了很多很多.. 可是我從來沒有抱怨過..
因為我知道, 自己的選擇, 到後來的結果, 還是要自己承受...
如果我把他詛咒了, 他發生了甚麼事情, 自己又會好過嗎?
現在的我, 只有努力的向前看... 如果把頭轉回後面, 就只會讓自己傷心,難受..
還記得他說的一句話, 就算我有了另外一個, 只是玩玩, 玩了我就會回到你的身邊..
那時候的我, 傻傻的等待他玩了過後回來我身邊.. 我看應該有很多男生對女生說過吧.
說真的..那種感覺不好受, 因為愛 ... 把一切所有犧牲.. 因為愛 , 把自己搞到糊裡糊塗..
要愛, 就要承受一切, 要愛, 就要勇敢的面對一切..
選擇了愛, 就不能回頭... 只能往前走, 愛, 就好像一場遊戲..
你把他按了start, 你就要跑到 end.. 可是遊戲歸遊戲, 現實是現實, 遊戲可以Pause, 現實不能..
輸了贏了一切歸自己... 誰可以保護你? 只有自己..
要愛, 首先就要承受的了傷害..
付出了, 就不能把他收回來.. 因為這是自己的選擇..
選了就是選了... 如果這個世界上有"如果", 很多的人都不會受傷害..
可是這個世界上真的沒有"如果", 我們只能接受現實...
男人, 他們有很多的招術來對付我們.. 只要讓他只道你的弱點, 他就會把你吃死..
比如說, 男的做了一些東西讓你懷疑, 你去問他.. 他不承認, 反而他說你不相信我就算羅..
我們再一起那麼久, 你都不相信我.. 你到底是不是真的喜歡我?
女的真的不知所措了. 因為男的把這句說出來, 我們女的真的不知道應該怎麼做..
就只能乖乖的相信他, 不再追問, 不再懷疑.. 其實私底下, 男的真的把女的騙了..
這就是女的弱點.. 男的把你吃了...
就算下次男的做錯了, 都會用這一句話來頂撞你..
當男的有了第三者的時候, 被你知道了, 他就會告訴你說, 你不相信我是嗎?
那我們分手吧, 反正你都不相信我了..
男的還會惡人先告狀, 哈哈.. 我體會過不少次數...
這根本就是精神上虐待, 事實擺在眼前, 要怎麼去接受? 要怎麼再去相信?
不相信, 得到的只是分手.. 但自己又愛他, 沒有辦法, 一定要相信..
唉 ... 沒辦法, 這個就是愛..
女人阿, 就是那麼的慘...
當然, 女的也有這樣對男的..
所以, 要愛, 就要學會保護自己...
如果自己都保護不了, 那怎麼去把要愛的人保護上呢?
不要被愛矇著了雙眼.. 這樣會把前面的路看不清摸不著..

感覺只到這裡, 我還會繼續這個文章.. 還有下文..
續待..

我的男人

我的男人，怎么说呢？她有很多值得让我学习的地方。。
这个男人，表面就好像不能让我长大。。
可是，有时候他真的很让我敬佩。。
他比其他在我身边出现的比较特别。。
他没有母爱，没有父爱。。16岁开始，一切的东西都是靠自己双手得回来的..
所有一切都是自己一手一脚辛辛苦苦熬回来。。
当一个没有母爱没有父爱的孩子，怎么说，都是比其他有父母亲的来得成熟。。
当然我不是说全部,可是他是唯一一个被我所看到的。。
当然我也身在福中不知福的孩子。。在一个完美的家庭里，要风得风要雨得雨。。
可是，没有父爱母爱的，一切都要靠自己。。
他，省吃俭用才可以熬到出来。。
自己读书考试，打工赚钱。。有了我，他添加了负担。。很多时候]我想过离开。。
我觉得我是他的包袱， 他太过迁就我。。。而我就理所当然的越来越离谱。。
根本就没有想过他的感受，他害怕失去我，每一次无论是我的错，或是他的错。。
只有他是第一个跟我说对不起。。我根本就一个不讲理的女朋友。。
我不明白为什么他会喜欢我这种性格。。我不是在炫耀些什么。。
我在埋怨自己，为什么那么的犯贱！一个在我身边对我那么好的我偏偏就不去珍惜他。。
一直的发他脾气，而对我很坏的背叛我的，我就死缠烂打！人啊，是真的那么的犯贱~
我好惭愧，我自己想一想。。这男的会想保护我，我要什么就有什么。。
我要求些什么他都一定会给到我。。我不明白自己~
我好乱，我告诉他。。我要分开。。他不让我走。。
我知道就算我要走的话，他也不能阻止我。。可是说真的， 我不舍得他！
他条件很好，他的坏脾气，从来不会在我身上出现过。。
无论他多忙，在他心里，他都会一直的找我。。当他真的太忙了没有时间找我， 我却发他的脾气。。
如果有一天，他真的忍无可忍他一定会离开我。。我不知道我该怎么办，在这些情况对一般的男生来说，他们已经不要了。。
可是他却牢牢的抓紧我不放... 说真的，我现在开始害怕会失去他。。因为他真的太好了。。
他知道我是个爱自由的，他从来都不捆绑我的自由。。每一次我出去他都不会打扰我。。
让我轻松完了回家，我就会拨个电话给他。。他累了，他还是要等我的电话。。
我叫他睡觉，他怕我生气。。不肯去睡觉。。我告诉他明天一早我拨个电话给他叫她起床上班，如果没有接我就会生气。。
他告诉我说，他不要睡觉。他等到明天早上。。他怕他没有接到我的电话，他害怕我会生气他。。我不知道要生气好还是觉得幸福。。
为什么有一个那么傻的男人这样来对我。。
从在一起到现在，他都很疼很疼我。。没有向我发过脾气。。我却发他无数的脾气。。
其实我也数不完。。
他很保护我，当他不开心的时候，他都要我开心，想尽办法来逗我。。
而自己心里却不开心，对着我，带着无压力的心情。。私底下，却让自己心痛无比。。
我从来都不知道他开心不，他不曾在我面前给我一个不开心的样子，就算有，都是短暂的。。
我问他，有什么不开心的吗？ 他永远给我的答案只有“没有”
每一次都带着牵强的微笑，可是我却抓摸不到他的心在想些什么。。
我好失败！男人，我不值得让你对我那么的好。。
我没有你想象中的如此的美好。。
朋友们都看见你对我很好很好。。你是第一个让我朋友认同的。。
说真的，你害怕人家知道我是你的女朋友。。我到现在还是不明白为什么。。
难道，我真的不能见人吗？ 我会让你失礼吗？
没关系，一切都顺其自然。。我知道自己真的不好。。
男人，在我眼里，你是最特别的。。
他对我的态度，就好像我爸妈的一样。。
我爸，是个好男人。。每一次妈妈发脾气时，爸爸都忍让妈妈。。过了一会儿，爸爸就会把妈妈哄过来。。
每一次爸爸都让妈妈，在我眼里这些男人已经绝种了。。
社会变了，现在社会的男人都是大男人主义。。为了只是面子威风。。
这些我看不起。。。可是我身边的我得到了对吗？他就好像我爸爸这样忍让我妈妈这样来忍让我。。
我该时候珍惜他了，不然我就后悔莫及。。
今天，他让我看见最认真的一面。。
在学校里，有个小孩，把我弄生气了。。竟然对我无礼~
我生气得用藤条打他。。他哭了，我的男人跟他谈一谈。。他却走进来跟我说对不起。。
这是第一次我男人这样做，他从来都不喜欢小孩。。
哈哈，在他告诉那小孩道理的时候，我看见了他的魅力。。
他的样子非常的认真，从来没有见过这一幕。。
因为我的男人在我眼里都是一个很活跃的，他没有一分钟可以停下来..
在今天，我看见了。。哈哈哈哈。。对我来说真的很有魅力。。
还有一个孩子不知道为什么，突然间在我的班上不说话。。
因为他跟其他小孩打架，被欺负。。
我的男人就一直一直的很有耐心的哄他。。一直逗他笑
我在想，如果我真的有机会跟他结婚。。我和孩子应该很幸福吧！
我好爱看他那一刻，让我有种冲动想要紧紧的抱着他。。。告诉他，我觉得自己好幸福！！！
它是唯一一个对我最特别的。。性格很像。。
喜欢打鼓，喜欢开音乐开到大大声，脾气臭！固执！唯一一个不同的地方是她不喜欢看鬼戏，恶心的东西。。
哈哈哈哈。。可是我真的要看的话，他都会迁就我。。呵呵
好像大声地说，我好幸福啊！！！
男人，答应我。。不准离开我~ 我会改掉我的坏习惯。。
我不让任何一个来把你抢掉，除非你对我死心了。。

我爱你，男人！

i'll hold you tight . i'll not let you go ! you're belong to me..
i love you MR.IVAN !

With Love,
JuanBabe.

24.02.2010

haihz

haihz, i really dunno how can i express my feeling now...
got a good guys beside me, i dunno how to appreciate him..
i hard to control my temper, everytime he just endure my temper..
sorry .. im so sorry ~ im not a good gfren ~
i don't even how to understand ur feeling and just keep give you more and more pressure..
sorry ~ how many time i say sorry i know that canot intended to complement everything i do ~
mr.I, you're the 1 treat me so good..
don't even care the money problem or else.
i want to appreciate you !! I PROMISE !!
you're really too good for me ~!!
haihz, god... give me strength to appreciate him~
i need him badly..
when i get angry, he's the 1 let me scold , let me abreaction.
oh god! how good are him? i really want to appreciate this guy !!
i will never take off my hand, hold it tight ! i love u ~

Sick~

cough until canot sleep..~ hot ~
no 1 care.. very suffer.. cough until want to vomit !
very suffer now ! who can help me?

Enjoy Day ~ Everyone Happy !

hahahahaha.. i cant wait this day edi..
its come ! really come ! wooo.. come niao !
because leh, 3pair of us, xinyi*henry, hoezai*ms.teo,me*mr.Ivan go out together..
its hard to hang out together..
because baby here, xinyi not here, xinyi here baby not here..
or baby here, hoezai not here, hoezai here baby not here..
not here not here lah~ shit*
hahahahah.. chinese new year ! make us damn happy!
wakakakaka..
today baby come to find me, because we want to go dating mah~ =)
8am+ baby reach here edi, i not yet wake up = ="
sleep late, that stupid wont call me 1..
8.30am wake up no wash face then straight go out fetch him to home..
after that wake xinyi and henry up, because we dated to eat breakfast together..
hmmpp.. 9am+ go out fetch them and go restaurant take our breakfast..
after breakfast, i fetch my dear xinyi go to the ampang point buy new year cloth for her sis and bro.
finished edi, we back home and prepare..
until 12pm+ dated hoezai wait at 28..
after yamcha, we start our DATING lo~
i drive car, hoezai drive his car..
hmpp, on the way i got some quarrel with baby..
and they sleep like a pig..
im alone.. = = sien like hell.. no 1 talk with me..
almost fall asleep. duh~
reach there 1pm+ go to cinema buy ticket..
we buy 2.20pm PERCY JACKSON AND THE LIGHTING THIEF..
b4 movie we still got time, we go to the chicken rice shop have our lunch there.. =D
gahh, we play until forget the time.. 3pm go inside the cinema..
its late ! but nvm.. we didn't miss anything =X
this movie not bad ar.. hahahaha~ some part damn funny..!!
after movie we go window shopping lo, babe block me to buy thing..
economy got problem lah ~ i mean ME .. =X
because always drink beer drink beer, yamcha yamcha, buy thing buy thing..
almost finish my salary edi =X macam use water =.=
and then we go S&J buy my dear xinyi bday present =) hope she will like it..
5pm+ i want to sent baby to station lrt.. time square to pandan indah =x
because can meet long mah , baby say 1 ar.. hahaha
after sent him to station lrt, i back alone lo~
haihz, reached home just face the wall in the room .. sien~
keep find my dear ms.teo and xinyi no2 wife to chat.. wakakakakaka
8pm+ i go mop all the room, and wait hoezai them come back and fetch me out, DRINK BEER again = =
i scare i got a beer tummy =x
gahhhh~ 11pm+ he just fetch us .. late like hell ! sei bet bet ~ doink!
drink until 12am say happy birthday to my dear xinyi, sent her to home..
i drive hoezai car, ms teo and xinyi and I crazy in the car..
xinyi become DRUNK ass! hahahaha..
only 4cup ~ =x on the way to home open the window keep scream, DOINK!
and we follow her.. wakakakakkaa.. damn damn damn damn fucking crazy inside the car.. woooho~ damn enjoy..
sent her home and then kiss her me and my dear ms teo back the place to join back drink beer.. doink~
drink until 1pm+ go steven corner yamcha again..
we going insane! arghhhhhhh~
so tired now... waiting the CHINESE NEW YEAR ! 1ST DAY AR!
maybe go genting with dear msteo and hoezai?
still dunno yet.. hoooooooo~~
miss him so much now ! he sleeping = =
its time to sleep, soooooooooooooooooooo tired..
go out whole day edi ~

I LOVE YOU MR.IVAN~

WithLove,
JuanBabe.

I tak tau ~

baby, im very confused ~
haihz .. have a calm few days ba..
i need time ~ take care !

Very Excited!

woohooooooooooo~~
baby come find me tomor.. dating ya ~
muacks.. love you babe.. goodnight..

WithLove,
JuanBabe.

fuck you!

wtf, why i got those fren 1 ?

im very regret lo ! seriously !

fuck you ! go away from me..

i hate you all very much now ! FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

HAPPY !!

haha, few days didn't update my blog edi..
lets start now !

thursday 28.01.2010

hmmppp.. same as usual go to work and dating with baby..
something happened in the school..
make me insane ! omg ! i can laugh for few days.
im going crazy !!!!! i keep imagine the thing ! fuck.
that day, i ask my student to colour..
but i saw him why do not take out the pencil colour.
then i take his bag and check out.
hahaha, then i saw something so interesting inside his bag..
i take out ! OMG!!
its SAUSAGE ! why the student will bring the sausage to skul and put in the bag?
make me insane ! i keep laugh laugh laugh and laugh ! NON STOP!
after that i ask him , izzit you like teacher? you want to give teacher?
he say yes, then i ask him izzit teacher so pretty ? he say YES ! akakakakakakakakakakakakakaka!
this student really freaking funny MAN !
i can laugh about this NON-STOP!
im going crazy!
after worked, then i baby back with me..
i reached home and ate my lunch after that bring babe and henry go to eat.
4pm+ sent them to station lrt, henry want to go bangsar for return something.
on the way to station lrt, got a corner..
then i hear henry say aiyar !
then i see the mirror, because im driving..
i saw a shoes there, then i see behind me..
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! henry pokai !!
because he didn't hold anything.. then pokai ~!
omggg.. i laugh non stop about this..
that day , hoezai come back from kuatan ~
mm.. at the night i go have a tea with ai xian, hoezai , henry, huiru, kahwei and beh..
wakakakakakaka.. HAAAAAAAA..
in the cafe shop, laugh NON STOP 1hour !
1hour you know ? NON STOP !
kahwei keep say abnormal thing.. gahhh~~~
ma lou, make me insane..
when i chatting with my dear and on cam..
my fren keep make my babe.
akakakaka.. my fren damn funny izzit my babe? =D
10pm+ we go second round to S.A
got, henry, me, hoezai, ai xian, hui ru, xuanlong, kokkit, fei jun, peiyen, ah dew, ahbing and kelvin.
ma hai, i dunno izzit i too crazy edi ! keep laugh at there..
and keep make joke.
fuck nia.. 12am+ back home because need to work .

END.

friday 29.01.2010

hmmp, go to work as usual..
ahbing start to work today ~
very tired today.. because i keep need to care those children.
baby have a serious sick ~ he naughty, dun want eat medicine.
finally eat edi =D
after skul, tot wanna yamcha with hoezai..
because he say he take his NEW CAR today ~
but ffk. late edi.
then we go cafe shop to eat and chit chat..
5pm+ back and wait hoezai come to my house go sent my dear to midvalley..
haihz, traffic jam like hell ! 10pm+ reached home.. sot edi ~
something funny laa.. lazy type out..
I CAN SAY THAT, I LAUGH NON STOP THIS RECENTLY !
IM TOO HAPPY LE !
im miss him so much now..
feel wanna cry . dunno why !
really miss him alot. wanna hug him ~
he sick edi, i cant take care him..
so worried!
haihz.. god bless him~

i love you MR.I

WithLove,
JuanBabe.

i hate the feeling ~

i dun want to hurt anymore, can i ?

i hate the feeling !!!!!

i need happiness !!!

happiness ~

im so damn happiness that i have you ..
you give me all the thing that i never had b4 ..
baby, i love you very very much ~
this afternoon, wake up on 2pm, he text me..
say izzit i sien him edi, i DIDN'T! i still not yet wake up la baby.
hmmp, then i call him..
aiyerrr.. no brush teeth no take shower and no eat breakfast then go da gei edi.. DOTA AGAIN?!
i stop him dota 1week .. hahha ~ he promised also..
dunno will he do that? =) hope so...
laaaaaaaaaa.. this afternoon almost quarrel with baby..
because of me lo ~ haihz.. bitch la me..
after that nothing edi.. after i take my breakfast, 2pm+ i go out alone and bring lappy go on9 ..
im so enjoy when im alone. duno why.
this recently always like this..
chat with baby until 4pm+ his go do something.
then i go find xinyi yamcha.. hahahaha ~
long time didn't find her edi.. damn miss her.. duhh!
gossip until 5pm, back home and lying on the bed and miss him ~
6pm+ baby call me and chat a while his go to study.
hmmp, tonight didn't go out eat.. maybe mummy lazy want to go out..
dinner at home. 9pm+ i go maybank alone ..
after that fetch henry acc me go another maybank, because that stupid maybank got problem. canot transfer.. sorhai ! make me want go another place, waste my car oil.. another bank also ! ma ji bai ~ make me damn angry.
after that we go to 28 yamcha..
got henry, ahchung, manfei, fengling, kianchong,kokkit,peiyen and me.
hmmp, 11pm+ sent henry back and i go 7eleven buy top up card and buy bread for make egg sandwish to baby , henry, sis and my love ASSIS !
reach home and call baby chit chat a while then i go make the sandwish.
boiled the egg wait 20min and start to cut onion and cucumber.
after that i on msn chat with baby again, i want to see him ar !!
chat a while then off again , and call him and chat again..
everyday everymin everysec everyhour chat chat chat ! we very 8.. keep gossip ..
after hang up, i go make the sandwish again.. ma hai you know i saw what?
so hai ......... COCKROACH !! grrrrrrrrrrrr...
i dunno use what to SMACK it !
then i take a bottle and SMACK it 9 9 !
then it die already.. hahahahahahahhahahahahahhahah..
sohai cockroach let me stun ~ akakakakakaka, * try to imagine how i kill it.
it very geli after dead, then i blow it to the washing basin, and open the faucet.
then it die in the washing basin hole.. hahahahahahahaha.. very sohai !
COCKROACH, dont appear in front of me ~ you will die 9 9 =DDDDDD
hmmp, finally.. i finished my egg sandwish.. gonna to sleep now.
later baby STUN me like i STUN the cockroach.. akakaka
goodnight..

i love you babe.

With Love,
JuanBabe.

nothing

nothing to update.
window shopping, at last buy thing. im shit.
lazy.

=)

haihz, today my skul really confused..some student fight in the skul.. let me hit..a boy bite his fren, his fren punch his head..i dunno which is true.. hard to explain to their parent. = =and then b4 i back home some girl broke down the light..i almost kena.. if kena i will die.. baby damn fierce..laaaaaaaaa.. i know he very du lan ~ very punch her already ~ hahahahaha.. because he dun like kid = = but i like ar @@hehe, after work.. wait babe until 3pm, because some1 delay his work time..then back home to eat, and he meet my mother.. hahahahagot identify to meet already.. kakakakaafter my lunch, i take henry back home, and go mcdonald with babe..he hungry like a cat. hahahaha.. i scare he dizzy seriously..and he sleep late today.. didn't eat anything else.. then i go buy some bread and biscuit for him b4 i go to work.. dunno he sweet anot.. =DHMMP, after lunch he came to my house.. 5pm sent him to station lrt.. owwww...something happened b4 we go station lrt.. but after i back home. nothing edi.baby dont worry ! hahahaha.. today im damn happy.. dunno why.. feel so sweet ~ hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha baby say he happy and sweet too, nothing to block us today ~ im so enjoy and relax today..im waiting my baby on9 now, im alone outside @@i scare kena rob. arghh ~because im girl.. @@hooooo, scare lah babe ~faster come and hug me lah.. muacks.. i love you deep , sweet day =)love you much everyday..

i love you. mr.ivan

WithLove,
JuanBabe.

KILL MYSELFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

IM SO SORRY, IM NOT THE MEAN THAT WANNA MAKE OUT PROBLEM.
MAYBE YOU WILL FEEL THAT IM SO BOTHERSOME AND ANNOYED.
HOWEVER,
IM SO SORRY , MR.IVAN

I HATE THE FEELING RIGHT NOW..

im very confused now...
izzit that's true? i dunno ~ god.. only you can help me.
god ! i love you deep..
haihz, what gonna happened lately?
i dunno also, no 1 know..
i scare the answer is real 1 ..
what i gonna be? i dunno..
i need a comfirm answer.. haihz..~
i hate myself so much..
i hard to express my feeling..
i need warm hug, warm kiss make me comfortable..
i need a shoulder right now ! can i get this ?
i need to cry badly.. i need some1 can listen to me..
im the 1 who look down myself..
some1 help me? i need it badly ! SERIOUS !
haihz.. what happened to me suddenly?
i dunno why also. emo now.
im happy just now , but im emo now.
im really is a bitch ! bullshit

PAIN, SWEET, UNLUCKY

okay, start from this morning..
went to work like usual.. ROAR!
haihz .. my student play the door when im talking with auntie..
omg , my hand kena folder to the door.. oh shit ! pain like hell !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sooooooooo pain.. okay, after that nothing.. coz baby sayang back ~
laaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. after work, we back home together with henry, sis and babe.
reached my home, i go changed cloth.. because we need to go cc for da gei with kelvin xuan and henry and babe and me. kaaa..
b4 changed cloth, henry and my babe play bro ps2 - naruto = ="""
they damn noisy = = "
3pm go mamak stall wait for them to come..
go cc until 4pm+ sent baby to station lrt.. alaaa, i hate those time when im sent him to lrt..
gahh.. something happened, but secret lah ~ hoho~ you know i know lo mr . ivan.
and then i back home after i sent him to lrt..
then lying on the bed chat with him.. hehe
today really sweet, but something happened just now..
seriously im down just now.. dunno how to solve the problem..
but i know, you will solve that whatever ~!
i trust you.. =)
just now no comp play, my face damn diu ! NO COMP = NO LIFE
then i go out on9, when i take the laptop charger, i knock my head to the table..
wtfbbq ! damn pain ~!!! gahhh..
haihz ..
im so unlucky today.. i need sek back lahh.. hahahaha ~
haihz, have a nice day today =)
HOWEVER, I LOVE YOU DEEP ! my beloved.

WithLove,
JuanBabe.

how sweet am i ?

laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... wake up in the morning.. sleep late edi le..
because i sick edi .. haihz .. very suffer !
oh no, mother fucker.. can you dont disturb me anymore? fuck ~
you so annoyed~ ewww...
8.30am go to work .. baby buy medicine for me.. wow ~
how sweet am i ? he very sayang me ~ hehehehe.. im very sweet today ~
omg .. so warm ~ lalaa..
today we go hospital visited heidi, b4 we go , we go to shopping mall some fruit for heidi~
and then i go bread for them, sis, henry and baby.. i know they're very hungry~
after that we go to hospital together.. hmmp~
today baby damn sayang me.. =D IM SO SWEET LA BABY..
4pm + reached home and then out with baby and henry..
go 28 yamcha with dave,kelvin, jimmy, ahchung and xuan..
gahhh~~ 5pm+ sent baby go station lrt.. haihz.. i cant let him go lah seriously..
feel sad.. i scare we no more time can dating.. because i want go NS soon~
i have to appreciate the time now ~ no 1 understand.. even family too..
ya, i spent all the money because of i need happy.. its so easy~
and i need baby badly.. i need his shoulder, need his hug, need his sayang.. its so easy ~ izzit ?
after sent him back i take a nap, because i eat panadol , feel so sleepy.. awwww
now, what he doing? DOTA LAH ! DOTA DOTA DOTA !
DOTA MAKE PPL CRAZY ! dont want work dont want sleep dont want eat dont want back home dont want go toilet.. every girl, correct anot? ishh !! DOTA ! I HATE YOU..
its crazy !! stupid ass DOTA ! make my dear, my bro , my fren gonna crazy edi..
while playing, diu diu diu and diu ! dunno why?! Omg~
last time my fren play until want to fight? need anot? dota make ppl crazy ~ gahhh!!
but dear, behave urself.. dont play always alright ? stop foul language.. !! duhh~~
im waiting you to online lah.. ROAR !

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH mr. ivan ! I'M SO SWEET TODAY ~

WithLove,
JuanBabe.

Sick, suffer ~

laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. happy everyday when i be with him~
today 8.30am wake up, get flu edi ~ haihz..
and then baby say he sick too, sore throat @@
and then b4 i go to work i go 7eleven buy medicine for my dear..
he sick.................. heart pain, but, he deserve 1..
because he didn't drink water, but serisouly i heart pain when i saw him sick.. sayang sayang back =*) muackss..
after worked, i sent my sis and henry back.. and then go find him~
we go yamcha.. haihz, but bad weather..
because my baby want to learn car .. drive my car lah ~
haihz, at last no.. next time lah ~ hehehehe ~
4pm+ sent him to station lrt, aiyar, i cant let him go lah ~
want crazy already ~ fuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
lalalala, MY FREN, i miss his lips .. so?! i miss his hug.. so?!
envy ar ? hahahahaha ~ dont try to say about him =P
i private my blog then you all cant see edi.. wakekekeke
i love him i love him ~ chuiiiiiiiiiiiiiii meh.. =XXXX akakaka
haihz, i get sick edi lah ~
very suffer erhh.. GRRRRRRRRRR... and i miss you alot ~
love ya..

WithLove,
JuanBabe.

OH NO ! i love him very very much ~

hahahaha.. what the?????????
finally i out with him.. duhh ~
dar, i think because of me you faster finish ur thing izzit?
if not, you wont so fast i know that.. because you're very lazy..=X
hahaha, we go da gei today ~ @@ lalalala
damn happy ... happy until i want to bang wall edi ~
he hold my hand? i feel soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo warm..
because i damn emo yesterday.. i miss him sooooooooooooooo much~
lalalala, very happy.. gonna insane..
i miss his lips lah.. hoho ~ very soft..
i like to pinch his face, but he dont like that.. awww..
but nvm, i know you allowed me to pinch ur face..
coz im ur dear mah.. izzit? *i know i perasan.. hoho
lalalala, i can see you tomoro.. but 11am -12pm only..
but nvm its ok ~ i know you will take time to come find me..
waiting tomoro ~ lalalala..

i love you my dear babe..

WITH LOVE,
Juanbabe.

let it

babe, maybe we just gather only 3days..
but i scared? why? i dunno also ~
but you dont worry, i forget my ex already..
trust me .. but sometime i jealous about you stick with girl..
i know i have not to suspect you and i should believe on you ..
i hope that i can with you forever.. GRR...
why so suddenly we will be together? haha..
i dunno why also.. fate problem?
i like to see you smile, laugh bla bla bla..
sometime do stupid to me.. make me LMAO~
hahahaha.. baby, tell me you love me and wont abandon me..
when i chat with you i feel very happy..
i can dont bother my friend and keep chat with you.
first time like this, and rush to some place to chat with you when big rain..
actually, just now when i on the way to the cafe shop, almost an accident,
coz i drive too fast.. sorry ~ i promised you that i wont do that again.. hehe
because i love you mah ~ =P
haha, you sure sleep like a pig now..
dar, i want to tell you that, dont try to lie me.. i dont like that..
if you like others, tell me the true..
what you want to do, just tell me ~ i wont angry..
however, i hope you happy~ we can solve everything and talk properly..
NO LIES ! if you choose to leave me, tell me..
i want you happy only.. thats all !
i tired about liar.. but i trust you lah.. =)

LOVE YA.

WITH LOVE,
Juanbabe.