☄ Relax Time ☃

hoho , is my relax time !!
because mother and father go to travel ..
i'm so relax because no people nag me anymore ..
but seriously mother didn't nag me in these days feel not used .
hmmpp, saturday night decide go to church with dear .
at last, didn't go .. due to something happened .
then i decide to go bangsar find dear to take dinner .
after prepared , out at 7pm+ .. i'm late =X
reached there almost 8something like that .
wait dear 5minute outside his house, make me pissed off..
because i don't like to waited people.
after he get on my car, we got some arguement.
after 5sec nothing already . it's difficult to control their own do not speak .
we decided to go midvalley have our dinner ..
reached there about 9something, find parking make me pissed off again..
don't even know why this recently i don't know how to control my temper!
finally, i found a parking . went to shopping mall and see what to do.
ivan say want to watchmovie, then we go to the cinema and see got what nice movie and see the time .
then we go queue , we choose IP MAN 2 . suddenly i feel no mood want to watch.
then we go out from the queue, it make us feel weird . hahaha.
because we queue there almost 10minute. suddenly come out .
i saw some interested shop over there, is a guitar shop ..
we go inside and see and also ask the guitar price for my friend.
and i saw a set of drum very nice !! OSHHH...
make me get excited want to buy ! 2k ...
but if i buy don't know where can i put .. hahaha ..
and if i play at home, sure will be very noisy 1 .. akakaka ~
after that we go hang around the shopping mall ..
still thinked what to eat , finally we choose to go eat sushi .
duhhh ... after eated we back to bangsar and find where the mitz club location..
finally found it .. decide go there to celebrate my farewell party .
anyone want to join us ? =D tell me if you want to .
after found the mitz club then we go ivan house outside there chit chat inside the car .
chit chat until 11pm+ then ivan go back home .
reached home 11.30pm decide to find henry, reached his house feel not well.
then back home early, i tot want to play until morning.
but my body does not obey . so, back home early .
reached home play comp a while and chat with ivan .
sleep in 1am+ .. too tired ..
on this day, i was so relax to over the time . =D
i hope i can lead my life like this everyday.

♥ you Mr. Ivan .

WithLove,
Juanbabe.♥

Appreciate ❤

I'm so lucky that i get a boyfriend like you ..
I'm not sure that izzit you really love me 100%?
But, that's not important for me ..
because, i dont need this ..
What i need What i want, i think you clearly than me ..
You're very stupid to treat yourself like this because of me ..
why ? im not that good what ..
because due to my temper than you don't want to tell out your feeling ..
everytime everywhere we go, sure will get arguement...
because of what ? my temper .. !!
sometime i really hate my temper .. im so sorry my love..
i dunno how to control my temper .. i hate myself sometime..
im so damn bitch ..
Sometimes, i want to break up with you ..
because why ? haaa ..
the reason is so funny .. i look down myself ..
im not suit you .. why ? im so weak !
i cant stand what they say ! how come ?
don't think me that im so strong , i am not strong woman ..
actually im very weak .. all of them tot im so strong, but so sorry...
im not, im just pretend in front all of you .. because i need to protect myself .
no 1 can protect me , after i knew you ..
im very lucky that i have you ..
sometime i cry for nothing .. you very worry about me ..
moreover you go bang the wall you go hurt ur body ..
oh no ! im really heart pain when i see that ..
i can see that how much you love me, sometime i look at ur eye ..
my heart really pain, i dunno how to express out my feeling to you..
just got a feeling im so heart pain, i feel that im so sorry to you ..
haaaa... you younger than me .. this is the 1st time i got a bfren smaller than me ..
you're the first one ..
sometime, i say i need to go edi.. take care urself .. (i mean ns)
you'll tears about this , and hug me tight ask me don't go..
dear, i have to go.. i hope don't go too because of you ..
this recently, you make out something really make me heart pain ..
maybe, you're not mature yet .. but i know time can change everything..
i'll wait for you .. because no 1 is perfect ..
still got the 1month, i've to go edi, PLEASE.. take care urself ..
because im not beside you ..
I am sincerely telling you that IM SO SORRY MR.IVAN ..
i hurt you alot due to my temper ...
you're the 1 who really love dearly me ..
everything i need, everything i want to do ..
at 1st you'll say no, but after i give you a bad face then you ALLOW edi .
but i know ur heart the answer is NO !
you want i happy, how many reluctant you dun want to you will say yes also..
ur dear going to ns soon, you want i happy b4 i go ns ..
you want me without any pressure to go in ..
you borrow me ur laptop even you canot play..
you come to find me every morning wake up on 6am and take bus , putra line and also the lrt to come find me..
how sweet am i ? how happiness am i ?
when im not happy, you're the one let me bite!! let me beat!! let me scold!!
you NEVER NEVER complain before ..
when i no mood, you'll make some stupid stuff and make me laugh..
when i so down, you're the one who beside me and support me ..
when i not allowed what you want to do, there are few hundred in your heart you want to do ..but you will just listen to me..
because you dont want i get hurt, get sad, get moody and most important is argue!
when i argue with you, you'll never want to argue with me.. i dunno why..
and i also dont understand why.. but now, i understand ..
IVAN, im so sorry ... i really hurt you deep.
i dont even understand ur feeling .. im so dump!!!
im so bitch !! i hate myself why i want to treat you like this ..
everytime i told myself, do not treat you like this anymore .. but when something happened, i just cant control my temper.. i hate my temper badly !!!
dont treat me so good, you know why ??
because when you treat me so good, i will just insatiable ...
i'm just like a queen in ur heart !!
i know i know, you want i happy now because of the problem ..
but seriously no need lah..
give me time .. i will heal myself ..
and also i want to tell you here.. how much you want to take care urself when i go in to the NS...

THE THING YOU NEED TO DO WHEN I GO NATIONAL SERVICE****

1. becareful when you go to work .
2. do not take the headphone to listen music when you're crossing the road.
3. remember to bring water when you go to work.
4. you no drink water, you will get sick !!
5. after work, pls back home early .
6. before you sleep, pls cover blanket, later you catch cold.
7. dont play comp and psp until so late, (blackshot ar, monster hunter ar, warcraft ar)
8. be patient when you settle everything .
9. hardworking to work.
10. dont play until forget to study.
11. help me take care my family .
12. dont wear slipper always because you very careless .
13. dont because of you want to save money dont want to eat .
14. remember help me to pay insurance fee, i come back i will give back to you ya!
15. after i come back, i dont want to see you get skinny .
16. everything you're not happy, just write down to the book , wait i come back
and see .
17. dont make me to worry you when im inside there.
18. dont chase lenglui, see can lah .. hahaha..
19. remember that i'll miss you everyday.
20. sleep early always .

THIS IS ALL YOU NEED TO DO FOR ME IF YOU LOVE ME. ❤

at last, i want to tell you that ..

I DO ❤ YOU VERY MUCH IVAN KOK MUN CHUN .

WithLove,
JuanBabe.

21 MAY 2010

看透了一切....

所谓知人口面不知心，这句话... 让我深深地体会到...
不要小看这几句话... 这些话让我看见了许多的一切..
这几天，发生了很多很多的事情..
一切的一切都不管我的事，可是我被扯了下去...
这件事情弄得我失眠几天了，身边的却毫不在乎...
根本就没有觉得到底错的是在那里，我看在他心里面真的一点惭愧都没有..
怎么了？是到底怎么了？我完全都没办法的在继续的下去..
我接受的我忍受的一切都有限度的..
你把疤痕留在我的心里，不是说好像写错字了用胶擦来擦掉那么来得容易..
伤口，不是说服了药就可以完全的痊愈...
这一切，都不能禰補... 时间可以冲淡一切？
对不起，我不相信这些话... 因为当不开心的时候一切一切都会在脑海里跳出来..
所以，不要随便可以把一些伤害放在我的身上...
不然将来会影响感情... 在我心里，他是最可靠的...
可是事实的全部都不是!! 女人啊，照顾好自己..
不要被骗，就算你多么的爱他，他都会说谎！！
因为这些都不由你来控制..唯有自己保护自己...
不想被受伤害，自己清醒的做每一件事情．．
现代外面的世界的引诱都让他们无法抵挡．．