KILL MYSELFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

IM SO SORRY, IM NOT THE MEAN THAT WANNA MAKE OUT PROBLEM.
MAYBE YOU WILL FEEL THAT IM SO BOTHERSOME AND ANNOYED.
HOWEVER,
IM SO SORRY , MR.IVAN

I HATE THE FEELING RIGHT NOW..

im very confused now...
izzit that's true? i dunno ~ god.. only you can help me.
god ! i love you deep..
haihz, what gonna happened lately?
i dunno also, no 1 know..
i scare the answer is real 1 ..
what i gonna be? i dunno..
i need a comfirm answer.. haihz..~
i hate myself so much..
i hard to express my feeling..
i need warm hug, warm kiss make me comfortable..
i need a shoulder right now ! can i get this ?
i need to cry badly.. i need some1 can listen to me..
im the 1 who look down myself..
some1 help me? i need it badly ! SERIOUS !
haihz.. what happened to me suddenly?
i dunno why also. emo now.
im happy just now , but im emo now.
im really is a bitch ! bullshit

PAIN, SWEET, UNLUCKY

okay, start from this morning..
went to work like usual.. ROAR!
haihz .. my student play the door when im talking with auntie..
omg , my hand kena folder to the door.. oh shit ! pain like hell !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sooooooooo pain.. okay, after that nothing.. coz baby sayang back ~
laaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. after work, we back home together with henry, sis and babe.
reached my home, i go changed cloth.. because we need to go cc for da gei with kelvin xuan and henry and babe and me. kaaa..
b4 changed cloth, henry and my babe play bro ps2 - naruto = ="""
they damn noisy = = "
3pm go mamak stall wait for them to come..
go cc until 4pm+ sent baby to station lrt.. alaaa, i hate those time when im sent him to lrt..
gahh.. something happened, but secret lah ~ hoho~ you know i know lo mr . ivan.
and then i back home after i sent him to lrt..
then lying on the bed chat with him.. hehe
today really sweet, but something happened just now..
seriously im down just now.. dunno how to solve the problem..
but i know, you will solve that whatever ~!
i trust you.. =)
just now no comp play, my face damn diu ! NO COMP = NO LIFE
then i go out on9, when i take the laptop charger, i knock my head to the table..
wtfbbq ! damn pain ~!!! gahhh..
haihz ..
im so unlucky today.. i need sek back lahh.. hahahaha ~
haihz, have a nice day today =)
HOWEVER, I LOVE YOU DEEP ! my beloved.

WithLove,
JuanBabe.

how sweet am i ?

laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... wake up in the morning.. sleep late edi le..
because i sick edi .. haihz .. very suffer !
oh no, mother fucker.. can you dont disturb me anymore? fuck ~
you so annoyed~ ewww...
8.30am go to work .. baby buy medicine for me.. wow ~
how sweet am i ? he very sayang me ~ hehehehe.. im very sweet today ~
omg .. so warm ~ lalaa..
today we go hospital visited heidi, b4 we go , we go to shopping mall some fruit for heidi~
and then i go bread for them, sis, henry and baby.. i know they're very hungry~
after that we go to hospital together.. hmmp~
today baby damn sayang me.. =D IM SO SWEET LA BABY..
4pm + reached home and then out with baby and henry..
go 28 yamcha with dave,kelvin, jimmy, ahchung and xuan..
gahhh~~ 5pm+ sent baby go station lrt.. haihz.. i cant let him go lah seriously..
feel sad.. i scare we no more time can dating.. because i want go NS soon~
i have to appreciate the time now ~ no 1 understand.. even family too..
ya, i spent all the money because of i need happy.. its so easy~
and i need baby badly.. i need his shoulder, need his hug, need his sayang.. its so easy ~ izzit ?
after sent him back i take a nap, because i eat panadol , feel so sleepy.. awwww
now, what he doing? DOTA LAH ! DOTA DOTA DOTA !
DOTA MAKE PPL CRAZY ! dont want work dont want sleep dont want eat dont want back home dont want go toilet.. every girl, correct anot? ishh !! DOTA ! I HATE YOU..
its crazy !! stupid ass DOTA ! make my dear, my bro , my fren gonna crazy edi..
while playing, diu diu diu and diu ! dunno why?! Omg~
last time my fren play until want to fight? need anot? dota make ppl crazy ~ gahhh!!
but dear, behave urself.. dont play always alright ? stop foul language.. !! duhh~~
im waiting you to online lah.. ROAR !

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH mr. ivan ! I'M SO SWEET TODAY ~

WithLove,
JuanBabe.

Sick, suffer ~

laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. happy everyday when i be with him~
today 8.30am wake up, get flu edi ~ haihz..
and then baby say he sick too, sore throat @@
and then b4 i go to work i go 7eleven buy medicine for my dear..
he sick.................. heart pain, but, he deserve 1..
because he didn't drink water, but serisouly i heart pain when i saw him sick.. sayang sayang back =*) muackss..
after worked, i sent my sis and henry back.. and then go find him~
we go yamcha.. haihz, but bad weather..
because my baby want to learn car .. drive my car lah ~
haihz, at last no.. next time lah ~ hehehehe ~
4pm+ sent him to station lrt, aiyar, i cant let him go lah ~
want crazy already ~ fuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
lalalala, MY FREN, i miss his lips .. so?! i miss his hug.. so?!
envy ar ? hahahahaha ~ dont try to say about him =P
i private my blog then you all cant see edi.. wakekekeke
i love him i love him ~ chuiiiiiiiiiiiiiii meh.. =XXXX akakaka
haihz, i get sick edi lah ~
very suffer erhh.. GRRRRRRRRRR... and i miss you alot ~
love ya..

WithLove,
JuanBabe.

OH NO ! i love him very very much ~

hahahaha.. what the?????????
finally i out with him.. duhh ~
dar, i think because of me you faster finish ur thing izzit?
if not, you wont so fast i know that.. because you're very lazy..=X
hahaha, we go da gei today ~ @@ lalalala
damn happy ... happy until i want to bang wall edi ~
he hold my hand? i feel soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo warm..
because i damn emo yesterday.. i miss him sooooooooooooooo much~
lalalala, very happy.. gonna insane..
i miss his lips lah.. hoho ~ very soft..
i like to pinch his face, but he dont like that.. awww..
but nvm, i know you allowed me to pinch ur face..
coz im ur dear mah.. izzit? *i know i perasan.. hoho
lalalala, i can see you tomoro.. but 11am -12pm only..
but nvm its ok ~ i know you will take time to come find me..
waiting tomoro ~ lalalala..

i love you my dear babe..

WITH LOVE,
Juanbabe.

let it

babe, maybe we just gather only 3days..
but i scared? why? i dunno also ~
but you dont worry, i forget my ex already..
trust me .. but sometime i jealous about you stick with girl..
i know i have not to suspect you and i should believe on you ..
i hope that i can with you forever.. GRR...
why so suddenly we will be together? haha..
i dunno why also.. fate problem?
i like to see you smile, laugh bla bla bla..
sometime do stupid to me.. make me LMAO~
hahahaha.. baby, tell me you love me and wont abandon me..
when i chat with you i feel very happy..
i can dont bother my friend and keep chat with you.
first time like this, and rush to some place to chat with you when big rain..
actually, just now when i on the way to the cafe shop, almost an accident,
coz i drive too fast.. sorry ~ i promised you that i wont do that again.. hehe
because i love you mah ~ =P
haha, you sure sleep like a pig now..
dar, i want to tell you that, dont try to lie me.. i dont like that..
if you like others, tell me the true..
what you want to do, just tell me ~ i wont angry..
however, i hope you happy~ we can solve everything and talk properly..
NO LIES ! if you choose to leave me, tell me..
i want you happy only.. thats all !
i tired about liar.. but i trust you lah.. =)

LOVE YA.

WITH LOVE,
Juanbabe.