indescribable the feeling now

god, i pray!!
i pray everyday what i need, what i want ..
why i didn't get anything else??
i did it not good?
really??
god, i know ~ i know you're real 1..
i'll wait .. i'll wait until i get that..
i would like to live in full color of the world..
god, give me please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i need it badly. . .
i very tired.. i've tired everything..
what can i do?

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK YOUUUU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STOP DISTURB ME !